Nothing really great to report.

Still living at my mom's boyfriend's house where i wake up every morning to be graded on my qualities. Im still the topic of everyone's shit talking frenzys and conversations.

I really want to get a job and a van so i can just throw a matress in it and live in my car. Winter is coming up so sleeping in there will be possible with enough blankets. =]
My weekends have been pretty good, me Ian and Aaron pretty much drive around and do shit to get away for a while. And the weekends seem so much longer now that im limited to how much i can see my friends.

Good news is that i got my permit and im trying really hard to get a job so once i pass my driving test ill be one step closer to getting out of here!

Today i came across something that really ruined my chances of having a good day. You see yesterday me and my friend were walking around the train tracks and canals out here in the country and i came across a dead hawk floating in the water.
And i really hate seeing animals that have been killed and left there and ive been wanting to get into the habbit of burying dead animals. Plus this was a bird and not only a bird a hawk, one of the most beautiful.
Anyways we ended up burying him in a grove near the canal in a nice peacful opening hidden by mostly brush.
And this morning i needed to clear my head so i thought i'd go visit the hawks grave for some peace and quiet.
On my way i found something soul crushing.
A baby hawk was sitting right by the spot where i found the adult one yesterday. The one i found dead must have been the mother, i felt so bad. So i tried to get the baby but it kept running but wouldnt go too far but there people's dogs kept running up and barking so the poor thing would flip out and run away each time i came close to getting it.
From what i saw the baby was really beat up, its beak was cracked and it was missing both eyes..=/
And because those stupid fucking dogs wouldt just go away, the baby got away into the vineyards...and if you loose a small animal in there your shit out of luck.

I can only hope for the best for the bird....there are so many wild dogs and coyotes that live in the vineyards that litte guy has no chance.

I dunno its just messing with me alot because thats just really shitty even leaving out the fact birds are my favorite things ever.